New Year, Knew Fail

I never make new year resolutions because I know it will lead to failure.

The thing about convictions is that everyone has them.  Everyone has things they want to do with their life, things they want to change about themselves.

However, why do people never change?  Why can't we lose 20 pounds, why can't we get out of our parents homes, why can't we become more responsible with our money?

It is because that conviction is not supported with resolve.

When the push comes to shove, when we are dealt with the situation what is the condition of our resolve?



When we are dealt with a desire to lose 20 pounds, and we are driving home thinking of what to eat, how do we respond?

Do we drive home and make a meal that will cause us to eat less?  Or see the macdonald's on our left and swerve in?  Does our stomache and desire to be physically fufilled take precedent in our decision making?

Or does the inner drive from our core that is sick of the fat that is covering our core externalize? 

I believe the countless split moments of decision making we are dealt with everyday determine what kind of human beings we become.

And those who are spiritually mature seem to look to God in those split decisions when they themselves cannot pull out resolve. 

That is why the more santified and God-trusting people are, the more their lives seem to change.

So don't tell me you have conviction and dreams; Don't we all?  But show me your resolve, and more importantly, the resolve that is motivated by total surrender to Christ.


Just some food for thought.

Xanga Gone, Blogger Here

Hey all!

Its been too long since I blogged, and so i've decided to start it up again.

Its been 2 years since I've blogged and much has changed since then. My life, my situation, my occupation, and most importantly, my mindset has changed.

I've started to desire to live more for others, (started is the key word, selfishness is still key in my life), I've realized the money is not my own, and as Jesus states in Matthew 6:19-21: ¹⁹"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. ²⁰But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. ²¹For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

I believe my heart is with using what wealth i have (or lack thereof) to raise people. I want to see people change and transform for Jesus. I want what little I have to become a tool used to bring people, especially my youth kids to understand what it means to receive a free gift, maybe showing them a glimpse of grace. Money comes and goes, but as Jesus said, only wealth stored up in heaven is permanent and everything else is fleeting.


So i may never be wealthy in this world, but I know that my crown of righteousness is in heaven, as Paul states in 2 Timothy 4. I want to be like him and say in my last moments, "I have ran that race, I have fought the good fight."


This is my heart.